A little chat with God…

WARNING: THIS BLOG POST IS GOING TO BE SLIGHTLY LONG, YET VERY REAL.

Okay, so basically God is wrecking my life!

I’m going to take a second to get real with you people.

About a year ago, I was closest to God than I ever have been before. I was fearless when speaking about Jesus, I was passionate like never before about the lost, the world, this generation and Jesus Christ, and I was totally willing to own nothing and be nothing but a vessel for God to use for His glory.

After months of SARAH getting in the way, months of independence (not depending on God, that is) and months of just TALK about prayer, but no actual prayer… I got a little far behind in my walk with Christ.

Relationships started deteriorating (praise God for forgiving friends like Josh Ferrara),

My attitude started turning really bad,

and I missed opportunities to grow and learn and pour into people’s lives.

I realized all of this after Elevate graduation, when I looked back on the year and honestly, could not say I was proud of myself. Yeah, I got all A’s in college. Yeah, I graduated with honors in Elevate. But NO, I did not feel like I had served enough, given enough, or reached enough! NO, I did not maintain God- breathed friendships. And NO I did not put others before myself!

After meeting with Tiffany a few weeks ago, I have decided to work on three areas of my Christian walk. The first is SELFLESSNESS. The second is TOTAL DEPENDENCE ON GOD. The third is my PRAYER LIFE.

Now, for the cool part!

I decided to start the devotional Enjoy the Silence, which basically is a 30 day meditational experiment about hearing the voice of God. We got these at Amplified a while back, and though the book is more geared toward youth, it is still an excellent tool for growing your prayer life.

I just sat down with God the other day and explained to him how I really desired to just hear His voice and speak with Him at all times. Well, God has proved to be so faithful through these devotionals!

Day One was based on Luke 8:4-15.

After reading this, I realized that lately, I have been an example of seed thrown on CHOKED soil. I have been letting too many things take the #1 spot in my heart (which is SUPPOSED to be reserved for God by the way.) I have let worry and so many other things get in the way of my walk with God!

So after reading this devotion and meditating on it and allowing God to prove faithful and speak into my life, I walked outside and was looking at my sister’s vegetable garden. This is what God blatantly spoke to me as I was in the garden:

Sarah, here is a tomato plant that is growing and growing and growing, and look, it is producing fruit. Pretty soon it will be ripe and it will be able to be harvested.

This tomato plant is also growing. It is in the same garden as the other one, but the difference is that it is not producing fruit. Sarah, this is where you are. You are growing and growing and growing, but there is no fruit to harvest. Will you please let me cultivate you and produce fruit in you so that you too may be able to produce an abundant harvest?

I tell you what. I was floored at the faithfulness of God to speak words of wisdom into my heart through a TOMATO PLANT! I am just asking all of you to hold me accountable to what God has called me to do: to Love Him and to Love Others.

The tomato plant has already been picked twice, and it is still producing fruit. I just pray that I can be a true, genuine servant of Christ who constantly produces fruit!

So there you have it. No more selfishness. No more laziness. No more putting things before my GOD. I love you all, and just wanted to share what was on my heart!

SORRY FOR THE LONG- WINDED POST.